The Turning Point
The metal froze my hands. It was a lot heavier than I imagined. I felt a
million times more powerful than I did a few seconds ago. Using this weapon I
controlled the world. I decided who lived. And who didn't. The firearm was
pitch black and pocket sized. I couldn't believe it, I have been fantasying
about this moment all my life. My heart was pumping like a machine as my hands
wrapped around it. My eyes were bewildered as they refused to look away from
the delicate piece of art. From the reflection on the car bonnet I could recognize
the birth of a smile on Don's dark repulsive face behind me. All those who knew
him knew this was a very rare event.
"You make sure you take care of that" Don ordered in his usual low tedious
tone. I knew him to well to know not to answer back. That would only anger him.
The animal stood 6 feet 5 with broad long shoulders with the characteristics of
a monster. He was always in a bad frame of mind and had a very, very short
temper. His face was small and had disproportional eyes which acted like
surveillance cameras. He had the appearance of a professional body builder
which disturbed the public and his many enemies. He had muscles on every part of
his body, with no traces of fat or weakness. Don was the leader of the
notorious Gorilla gang; which protected the interest of black people in
Manchester from the racists. He was a big brother to all the new members. Like
me.
Losing patience Don ushered me to the exit of the car park. I was puzzled on
where to put the gun so I put it under my trousers just as they did in the
films. The gun was a few centimetres away from my right testicle. We trailed
down the bitter road with its derelict shops evidence of the poverty in south
London caused by the recession. We continued walking in a dangerous silence
careful not to leak any information to any people passing by. Each and every
one seemed fairly smart in their expensive suits and shiny shoes which
reflected the light from the street lamps. Don and I were easily noticeable as
we were clothed in our tarnished school uniform and were pacing in the opposite
direction as if we were time travellers. At the end of the road we parted, no
words were necessary because Don's wicked brown eyes were self-explanatory. I
treaded nervously to my house. With each step my imagination ignited with new
ideas on my new potential due to my possession of the GUN! Finally I arrived at
my destination and the daily search for my keys began. As soon as I stepped
into the hallway, I was in a hurry to get to the security of my room at the top
floor. I tried my best to avoid confrontations with my younger siblings and
parents.
'Hi rich, how was school today?' my mum quizzed from the top of the staircase
as she caught view of me.
"Great" I lied. I gained a record ten negative comments, but my mum
would never suspect her precious son of being a class delinquent.
"Why are you two hours late from school?" she questioned in an inquisitive
tone.
Sweat trickled down my head despite the fact that it was winter as a result of
the unexpected question."I was at the library" I muttered as I helplessly
lied again. When I jogged up the stairs past my mum, I couldn't stop
visualising the Gun dropping from my waist and falling into my mother’s vision.
She’d go ballistic. Finally I was in the safety of my room and without delay
locked the door to remove the possibility of someone intruding as I examined
the artillery. The gun was perfect and it felt as if it was deliberately crafted
for my use. The gun was identical to the pictures/posters on my bedroom walls.
I was hypnotized by the precise curves and durability. It was solid and seemed
as if it was going to last eternally. The object became best friend. I played
with it all evening like a toddler with a teddy bear. It sat beside me on my
pillow like a spirit, protecting me as I drifted to sleep.
I woke the next morning to loud knocking on my bedroom door. I froze. Immediately
opened my eyes and instantly recognized the gun lying beside me. I was thankful
it wasn’t a dream. “Richmond get up for school!” my Dad bellowed from the other
side of my door. I breathed a sigh of relief. I quickly shot out of bed like a
bullet and put the gun in by backpack.
A few minutes later after my bland breakfast, I was out of the house, with
the gun in my thread less backpack. I couldn’t risk leaving it at home. It was
so cold; it was at times like this when I wished I was back in Ghana where I
belonged. The sun was content on radiating Africa, that’s why I loved it so
much. It seemed so long ago since my family fled to Notting Hill after the coup d'état
in 1966, but it merely a years ago. I remember when I first saw my estate I
thought it was hideous. The old red bricked building was uncomparable with my
father’s beautiful parliamentary house in Accra. Anyways the secondary school I half-heartedly went was only a couple streets
away from my flat. The school was centuries old and was evident by the aged,
wrinkly teachers and it’s unmaintained, cheap structure. It accommodated a
predominantly white population no black people, apart from me. It wasn’t long
before I went through the corroded red gates of the atrocious place. It was
known by most Londoners as Hell but the worn-out yet energetic teachers
insisted it called Westminster city school. Almost immediately after entry I
was bombarded by people like a popular Politician, like my Dad when we were back
in Ghana. Only they wanted me dead. Instead of cameras and flashing lights in
my direction, there were empty cans and flying salvia. Instead of them making
me feel pleased with myself, they made me feel like the pink gum beneath their
expensive kickers. Instead of joyful screams from jubilant souls, there were
insults from deep within solid frozen hearts. Instead of smiles on angelic
faces, there were satanic frowns on demons like faces. This wasn’t bullying.
This was torture. Welcome to my world. I screamed for help from the pits of my
body, but remain unheard due to the chants of the entire school.
“Poor man, poor man, poor man!!” I was clearly resented. I strutted in
my aged tatty cloths which were too small for me. My trousers ended at my knees
and my shirt was unbuttoned because it couldn’t fit around my upper body. My
toes were bursting out of my shoes, they were more like slippers than shoes, and
they provided no comfort whatsoever. Back in Ghana I had all the nicest, latest
cloths if only i could somehow drag them past and show my relics. Only God knew
how much I despised my life now. I rushed quickly as I could to the entrance of
the institution which was just as chaotic as the playground. Today was going to
yet another dreadful day. On top of having double physics and then double biology
I had double Maths. I whole heartedly loathed my maths teacher Mr. Wise, to an
extent that I wanted to eradicate him. He was just as bad as the students as He
constantly insulted my inadequate mathematical skills throughout the lesson.
After biology I was frustrated as I discovered I was graded an “F” for
last terms test. Last week I gained the same grade and my Dad went ballistic,
the bruises from the event are still visible on my fragile black skin. I just wanted
get away from everything and be alone with the gun. So I went straight to the
reeking toilets, where I normally spent my lunch times in exile. On my route to
the furthest cubicle, I accidently bumped into an enormous year 11 student.
Obviously he didn’t think it so, because he started to repeatedly punch me in
my stomach and head as if he were a professional boxer. The blows were highly
impacting on my skinny body. I was
defenceless.
“Stop............... Please............ Stop..........
Please............... Stop................ Please.”
I begged but the machine was too intent on causing more damage on my brittle
bones. I struggled to keep my balance consequently I landed on the filthy floor
whilst he towered over me. He looked furious. His saliva landed on my face like
rain drops when he spat at me. He then walked off as if nothing had happened. I
must have gone into a coma, because I have no recollection after he left. Eternity
later I started the effort to try and regain my strength. When I stood up, I
caught sight of my face in the broken mirror on the wall. It couldn’t have been
uglier. My face had countless bruises with blood trickling from them. In
addition to my faults my eyes had swollen too. I didn’t care anymore. I staggered
out of the toilet to my maths lesson through the empty corridors.
I walked in five minutes late into the Mr. Wise’s. Expectedly Mr. Wise
pointed this out.
“Ahhhh look what the cat dragged in.” The idiot exclaimed through his
bright pink lips, as my peers burst into an energetic laugh.”You have a
detention “. I was too tired to argue.. aroma was evident as people held their
breath as I stumbled pass them and took my lonely seat at the back of the
spacious antique classroom. Mr. Wise was strangely tall man with a small head
covered with dirty blond hair, a long nose and beady eyes. He had a skinny body
which was hidden under the vast amount of layers he wore. Whilst he supposedly
taught the class I couldn’t stop thinking about the gun. I was urging to touch its
nude body and feel its power again. Irresistibly I gradually reached into my
backpack and grabbed the gun, then cautiously transferred it to my ripped blazer
pocket. Then I closed my eyes and caressed it, like it was the body of a super
model.
“Richmond stop day dreaming this instance. Come up here and show me and
the class if you’ve actually learnt anything this year.” Mr. Wise wickedly
smiled from one ear to the other like a clown. However I was the reason why the
class burst into laughter again. My Heart froze. Everyone’s eyes were on me. I
wanted to breathe my last breath that second. “Well come on then” he urged. I slowly
stood up and limped to the front of the room like a cripple, I still didn’t
have enough time to figure out the solution to the stupid equation. I stood
there staring so deep into the white marks; I think I saw its atoms. Behind me I
could hear snickers of laughter as I unsuccessfully attempted the question. The
questions weren’t like the questions I’d easily do at my boarding school in
Ghana.
“You are useless Richmond Odonkor!! USELESS!!” Mr Wise said. The words
burned my soul. I began to shake uncontrollably. “You can’t even do that”. The
room had fallen silent. Until a white boy in the second row called Mark started
the chants. They all joined in one by one. Shouting:
“Loser, loser, loser, loser, loser, loser, loser, loser, loser, loser”.
They repeated the words again and again like a scratched CD. I couldn’t take it
anymore. I was about to burst. I turned around and watched my enemies all
thirty one of them. No one, not even Mr. Wise made an effort to stop the
hooligans. He just stood stationary in front of me.
“Stooooooppppp” I screamed at the top of my voice. They didn’t. The next
thing I did definitely made them be quiet. I pulled out the firearm. There were
gasps from every corner of the room. I was in control. The look on Mr. Wise’s
frantic, distraught face was priceless. I lifted the gun to his hideous face. I
so wanted to pull the trigger. And watch his brains splatter on everyone. A
tear drop trickled from his eyes like a faulty tap. I smiled. For once in my
life I was the person laughing.